Today I have been a little discouraged. I talked to my case worker and found out that I am #13 on the waitlist which is good because it means I've moved up. But I also found out that the #1 person on the waitlist has been waiting 8 months. Which means it could take 8 months for our referral. Which is a really REALLY long time! I just feel a little overwhelmed at that thought. I want to stay positive and upbeat but sometimes I dont know what to do with the emotions I feel. The anxiousness and longing in my heart seems unbearable sometimes. Another woman who is adopting reminded me that sometimes these feelings are good because it keeps us fighting for our child. It challenged me to keep fighting for my child in prayer. It's the one thing I can do for her right now.
So with that said, please keep me in your prayers. Pray that I wouldn't give in to discouragement, but that I would learn to go to the Lord and pray. My daughter needs someone to fight for her and I want to step up. After all that the Lord has done to part the seas and make this adoption possible, why should satan steal my joy. Instead I want to praise God for all He has done.
6 years ago
1 comments:
The waiting id by far the hardest part. As long as you have a checklist to complete i helps but when it's all out of your hands and you've done all you can do, it's tough! Rest in knowing that God knows exactly who your daughter is, in fact she is probably still being formed or soon to be born. She will be revealed to you in His perfect timing......what a blessing! Enjoy the wait the best you can!!!
Blessings!! and praying for your heart o survive the wait!!
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